back home

after a wonderful weekend in Richmond I am back home in vb… for a few days. I have to go back up soon since school starts next tuesday. gross!

let’s see, what did I do in Richmond…. spent lots and lots of time with hagao ;D .. met his good friends and played video games with them, made a cheesecake, ate at croaker spot mmmmmm!, built a gingerbread house (little late, yea yea), went to the new xxi in regency (which is HUGE btw- 2 fuckin stories!!), and watched some movies. fun fun weekend! I was craving bubble tea the whole time but tt lounge is closed all break! dumb!

oh~!!!! I also went to the new gym on campus. it is sooooo sick! timmy and I went rock climbing and it was sooo hard. my arms are still sore I didn’t even go all the way up the wall either. matter of fact I didn’t even get to the middle. hahah. bah!!

back in rva

today:
- woke up early, showered/packed, felt dizzy and nauseous so I went back to sleep
- woke up v. 2, got outta the house and drove to good ol RVA
- lazed around for a bit
- walmart for cheesecake ingredients (YAY NOM) and ukrops for the very last rotisserie chigen and some white house rolls! mmMmM~
- post-dinner naptime!
- went to Timmy’s friend’s house for games…. and it turns out that his friend was my old neighbor freshman year. so cray cray!
- I guess now would be an appropriate time to go to sleep then. hmm.

bruce lee’s fav drink is WA-TAAAAA~!!!

water must seriously be the cure-all. mmm, I am using it as my medicine for EVERYTHANG now. when I woke up this morning (11:30 is still morning…) my left eye was bothering me so much that it scared me. like SCARED ME. at first it felt like there was a lot of pressure on the top of the eyeball. I thought it was because I was tired or something so I tried to go back to sleep but I couldn’t. it was practically throbbing. as I got up and made something to eat it got a little better, but throughout the day the feeling never went away. towards the end of the night it started to feel like it was swollen (no joke) and I started to freak out a litttle bit more. I thought to myself about what I’d been doing differently these days. haven’t eaten anything out of the ordinary, no looking at bright lights, no reading in the dark, etc. then I remembered that I hadn’t been drinking a whole lot of water lately, so I went and downed two cups quickly and ever since then I have felt 95% back to normal. crazy huh? maybe it’s just a mental thing. or I am just mental. HMM…….

my dad’s DSLR came in today. I waited on that fedex truck like a champ! it’s fun to play with but there aren’t too many things to take pictures of. maybe when I go to Richmond there will be some more fun things to take pictures of. here is a picture I took today of some chicken at work. MMMMMMM CLOSE UP!

I’m so hungry

I AM STAAAARVING. I just really want to go to sleep, but I know I will wake up hungry as hail.

This morning was full of fail. I woke up super early, got ready and left the house to go pick up my aunt and my cousin so we could go to the clinic. My cousin’s school sent home a letter saying he needed to get his second H1N1 shot, and my mom didn’t feel like taking him, so she volunteered me to do it. So I left the house around 7:30 AM and my car is COVERED in ice. I had no idea what to do! I’d never dealt with that before. I had to wake my mom up and ask her what to do. I’m such a baby. Anyway, so I got that taken care of, picked them up, and drove to the clinic. We got there at 8AM exactly and there was already a line (the clinic opens at 8:15AM). So we got up the window and I told them we needed to get my cousin his shot and it turns out we were the only ones there for an H1N1 shot. Everyone else was there for other reasons (phew). So I was thinking, “Great, since we are the only ones here for this, we should be out of here quickly. Jack doesn’t have to be too late for school and I can go back to sleep sooner!” But of course, since this clinic is run by the govt, everyone was slow as hail and we didn’t get called in til 9 AM. Turns out, since Jack JUST turned 10, he didn’t need to get the second part of the shot. So, we wasted a good amount of time for nothing. Sigh…. so I took him to school, signed him in and took my aunt back to her house. She gave me a lot of money for driving them. I tried to give it back but she wouldn’t take it. I felt bad since I didn’t even drive too far/long…..

afterwards I came back and took a loooong nap. sooo long. I woke up feeling kind of disoriented. went to work an hour later (that’s abt how much I slept..) and did the usual: take orders, play bejeweled, walk around aimlessly cause I get bored, whine, eat, etcetc

Richmond sooooooon. I want to be there but at the same time, sigh……

n-n-n-new year

kind of late on this, but oh well. it’s 2010 weee! lots of things to look forward to this year, both good and bad.. ehh not so much bad, as they are just scary and nervewrecking and lots of AAAHHHHH!!!!-ing will be done. anyway, it’s time to list my “resolutions,” which, unlike regular resolutions, will actually see the light of day and will actually(probably) be done. I’m not gonna go for the typical lost weight, quit smoking, blah di dah bullshit.

1. be more talkative – ok, so for real- I am actually hilarious. many people do not know this unless 1) they talk to me a lot or 2) I’m drunk (oops). I think people tend to think I am a beeotch because I don’t talk much and I am usually pretty quiet. or maybe, I just am a bitch =/ but anyway, I think this one will be my main “resolution” because my shyness will be the hardest thing to conquer. I don’t want to talk the fuck out of someone though. moderation, moderation..

2. update this more regularly – hmm.. could I pull off doing this daily? probably not. we’ll see how this goes. I’d like to update more so I can talk about what goes on in my boring life. but my memory is already so amazing I might not even need to write it all down…

3. be less judgmental and become more open and accepting – ya ya cheesy moving on.

4. don’t let others negativity/laziness/bad traits affect me – SUPER MEGA IMPORTANTE. I will only allow good traits rub off on me. I am lazy enough as it is. no more negative nancy’s round this part kthanks!

5. work hard and smart in school – this year is THE year for important things! hopefully this time next year I will be set and going forth towards my dream and making everyone proud of me, YEEEEEE!

6. 爱他 – this will be easy :]

paradise lost

These past few days, I have been in wonderful Orlando and Disneyworld, shocked at how nice people in Florida were and how open and pretty everything was. I came back today and my god how badly I wish I didn’t…

I am so sick of how backwards my parents are. It is 2009. TWO THOUSAND NINE. I am twenty years old, not twelve. People who see my brother and me together think that I’m the older one because he looks younger. Sometimes, my parents treat me like I am the older sibling. They excuse his stupid behavior and pamper him like crazy when he’s done nothing to deserve it. I work my tail off because they expect me to exceed my brother’s accomplishments. They tell me to help them find this, do this, do that…. why not ask the one who is finished with college and is doing nothing? Right, because I am responsible and considerate and I do what I say I will do.

So please, someone tell me… why would my mother freak out when I tell her about an important person in my life? Whatever happened to me being the responsible, considerate one? All of a sudden it’s talk like “Oh.. my god. You are just too young. Why? You’re just so young.. don’t date. No.. is this real? Is it serious? It’s just that… Laura, you can get pregnant.”

And that is exactly why I do not tell my parents anything about my life. They seriously don’t know much about me, and I’m glad that it is that way. But the one time I want to tell one of them something important, include them in my life a little… I get that kind of response. They trust me to make my own decisions and budget my own money carefully and do this and that all on my own. But of course, if I have a boyfriend, that’ll allll go down the drain and I’ll just get pregnant and drop out of school and my life will be over. Of course! It always happens that way.

end of the semester hoo ha

this has been the best semester evereverever.

I am so grateful for absolutely everything I’ve experienced, everyone I’ve encountered, and my thoi :]

party in the usa

new york city, ny
chicago, il
ft. lauderdale, fl
san antonio, tx
boston, ma
columbus, oh
elkins park, pa
memphis, tn
berkeley, ca

now I just have to narrow it down….again. =|

quickLAY~!

updates updates updates..

I am now a Brother of Phi Sigma Pi! yayayayay
Only a few more days until Thanksgiving break, which means NYC, Black Friday aaand Sonic!
A few more weeks and the semester is dunzo!
And when the semester ends, it’s time for Disney World!

I am the happiest I have been in a veryveryvery long time :]

fears

I am afraid of a lot of things. Most of my fears stem from my insecurities, which I know I need to get over and just get on with life. I’m a jealous person, and I know it through and through. I am a flawed person, I never denied it.

I am afraid that I take things too quickly. I fall easily. I am afraid of caring for someone more than they care for me. I am afraid that someday the person I love will leave me for the person they love more than me. I am afraid that the strange dreams I’ve been having recently will come true. It scares me more because it feels so real that I do think it could happen soon. I am afraid of letting go and trusting someone wholeheartedly, because in the end it always ends up that the only person hurt is me.

And most of all, I am afraid that I will never get past my fears and just live freely.